Mirage! (Saga of a loving heart)

Standing far away from me,

You chase me,

You want me to be closer,

You just want to have me!

I reach out to you,

Open up my arms to run to you,

You are my hope,my new sunshine,

I just want to have you too!

We have been dreaming for long,

Humming all the eroticism song,

It's just never enough to have you & so,

I wait for you in my bed wearing a thong!

I run towards you every time,

To live what all we have been dreaming,

But as I believe I am closer to you,

"I get to know that baby you are like a Mirage!"

A mirage, that appears to be water,

Like a hope for water in a desert,

But as you reach the water,

You realise it's just more of desert sand!

I stand baffled in the ocean of  desert,

To not find you standing there,

I see you chasing me again,

It confuses me to see you far away!

With all my patience,

With all my confidence n passion,

I run to you again; faster this time,

But d mirage turns up in vain!

I shatter, I break down, I cry,

Is your call to me a lovely lie?

But I see you again,

Chasing me from far, in pain!

I fly to you again with obsessive passion,

I pray to Thee to let me have you once,

It's my trick baby to have you forever,

N Gosh, I am face to face with u!

Ohh, it's not mirage this time,

Looks like my prayers have been heard,

I can just feel you touch me inch by inch,

I hold you tight, to make you feel me more!

Finally my thirst for you is fulfilled,

You touch your lips with mine,

It's all gain & no pain,

"When you love me baby, I call it a desert rain!"

I have waited for you for long now,

I don't wanna let you go anyhow,

I know that you are a Mirage by now,

But still I hope to get you forever somehow!

- Ayushi

Here I am!

Here I am, far away from all my city's busy cobweb..away from the running counters job and a nagging boss, away from the rude people of the city, away from the friends who are lost in their own cobwebs and selfishness, away from the city's heat, pollution, noise, away from the money-job search tensions, away from the sleep deprived nights..
I am away from the crowd of the metro, from the never ending desires n the within push to fulfill them. I am away from the litter, away from spitters, away from the show-offs in the town..
I am away from all the shit we take with or without our choice all throughout our lives..though for a while, but I am away.
It's not so far away though..I am at a popular hilltown, that we city people time to time chase, just to be far away.
I am at Manali...to rejuvenate, refresh and relieve.

Nature Calling

Yes+! It's time to sit in the nature's lap.. At times I wonder..nature has got so much to give us..it will make u hate it, but love also at the same time. On one hand we make changes with the nature, on the second hand, we want nature to be the way it is. That's Homo sapiens nature!!!
Be it anything, humans can't beat nature in anyway..as it's their visual treat too, their rejuvenating therapy too.
& so, I thank you nature for giving me soo much in these 4 days.. The lovely drive on the thin hilly roads, with pine n deodar trees full mountains on one side and gushing water of the river on the other and not to miss the little downpour giving cool breeze all through the way. All of it has prepared me to travel through the heat, traffic jams and sweating crowd.
I thank you nature for introducing me to the joy of feeling snowflakes on my skin, throwing snowballs around, making snowman, making me realise that maggi tastes better when gobbled in snowfall and showing me the areas which remain snowcovered throughout the year and people make their living in such extreme weather. These minus degrees snow hills and fields of rohtang will help me bear the minor winter season and motivate me to conquer the Himalayas even more.

Truth?

I'm born alone, I've stayed alone,
I've known this life for long, when I was just a tiny song!
I've felt the crowd empty, for nothingness I hv tempted!
Yet d brightness allures, with dull galores!
It's haapiness all around,with sadness buzzing around!
With a feeling of hope,my confidence slips down the slope!
N d biggest part of all falling apart is, that this is all true!! This is ALL TRUE.. THIS IS ALL TRUE!!

Sunday for everything?

Sunday for everything?

Sunday..does it changes some rules, which are being followed daily?
I am talking about the DMRC..sunday afternoon, while I was travelling in the metro..the ladies coach was full of men.

1. They have actually dropped thr balls that they were traveling in d ladies coach.
2. Metro people don't feel that women should be safe on sundays, so they freed the platforms from the guards who push these assholes away from the ladies coach. So, bingo! Men can ogle at women on sundays.
3. I alone, (yes I am proud that I am pissed of them traveling in our coach), asked a few men around me to move to the further coaches but they didn't move..then I realised why so, the seats were also grabbed by assholes, so why the hell would standing assholes would move their butt. N ofcourse, if I alone would try to move them, why would they move, I need "WE" to make them bugger off our coach.
4. The metro dumbly plays the track saying "first coach is reserved for ladies, men are not allowed blah blah blah". It seems assholes love listening to this.they have made it there everyday music.
5. A funny incident took place. A ladies guard alone was left at one of the stations, which is daily damn crowded, she shouted on the assholes to move them ahead. But they were so many..again her efforts were waste like mine. Plus she stepped inside the metro, n was baffled..as to how to get out, doors had been shut, but luckily they opened up again n she moved out n then she allowed more men to get inside the ladies coach.
6. All this is PARDONABLE, this fact is pissing stuff.
Wish rules were followed properly. The way they are meant to be. Not just to show off that rules have been made.

M sure if some authority person reads this, they are gonna say that atleast women are saved on weekdays!

Spitters! Pity Delhi!

Imagine a Delhi full of SPITS! Every road, every lane, every corner, just everywhere, Delhi full of spits on the roads and walls (even trees many times become the victims of spitters). Would you like to walk? Or even step out of your house? Imagine, your feet (girls with pedicure done recently), landing up on a layer of spit made by our proud spitters, shit! It will actually look like shit. Why I am talking all this crap is just to make you realize that one day this will be the situation actually if we don’t volunteer on our own and obviously we would never want our Delhi to look like this.
This problem of spitting is majorly in our city only, the capital itself. Just step out of Delhi and see the clean streets of Chandigarh, Shimla, etc. places where people adhere to rules strictly, if not cent percent but 90% at least. When plastic bags were banned their, that was in motion their but not in Delhi. So, why Delhi people are so arrogant to become a little civilized? Why only few areas are clean, not complete Delhi?
Wake up people! Stop rickshawalas, workers (mainly lower class), some rich ones even do that (slowly they pull down their window panes, take out their face a little and spit out the tobacco they had been chewing), youngsters (chewing gum comes under their attitude, attitude is okay, but please be civilized first) and list is huge. When our Delhi is so much developed as compared to the other places in India, then at least keep it NEAT and CLEAN. We all have been a part of some or the other educational institution and even though we had more of bookish knowledge at that time, still we know what problems we are facing, where and why. So, let’s not behave like hooligans and become normal, civilized, educated beings.

What we can do to avoid this rascal-ish spitting –
-Carry something in which you can spit, when you are out of home.
-Wrap chewed gums in some paper, keep it with you & as you find a dustbin (that’s generally on every bus stop now), dump it there itself.
-Make people feel that there spitting is making us vomit (obviously through expressions, don’t vomit & add to the woe). -I am thinking….you can contribute too.

Where's life moving??

Long time back, actually just two months back I finished up with my graduation. During these few months, when I proved as the most busiest busy bee on Earth, life took a turn. I became grandma of honey bees.lol. Completion of graduation successfully had no impact on people, just because I couldn't clear any of my entrances for my "Masters". Anyway, finding my way out of the taunts, a little bad time, offcourse, struggle time is always difficult to pass through, I managed to settle down myself at this place called "Home Shop 18"(HS18), where I am interning. Mind you, its' an internship, not job, no payment, etc. Also, I joined Masters of Journalism & Mass Communication, weekend degree prog, for my masters to be completed side by side. Now, interning with HS18, creative deptt, is all new experience, courtesy my super-senior. Again I am introduced to a mix of different kinds of people, some are good, some are just okay for a hi-hello, some are weird, some are too-good??this still has to be searched...
In this all busy time, having 5-days working like mads and then 6th & 7th day studying full day..life has become a bit bore, love-life (of all kinds) has taken a back seat, only little parts of fun are coming to me in very very small segments.. :( this wait between the settled job and struggle time is quite pinching and actually frustrating. But, anyways, lets see, how much patience and bearing power God has infused in me!!!! Hoping for good still....

Just a heart pour!!!